these are my confessions...
ok so you said that i have many flaws in me.
well first things first,if you really want it.
im sorry.
im sorry for being a bastard.
im sorry that i have countless flaws.
but despite all these,you were still with me.
and that'll mean tt you could take my bastard-ness,
and flaws. so why are you making so much noise only now.
im not a punk.
whether you want to perceive me as one or not,
that's totally up to you,
because everyone is entitled to having their own opinions.
and that includes of what i think of you too.
i know i had secret crushes,
but you have to know that i am a normal guy,
one that likes girls and not guys. :))
yes i might have fantasies,
but the important thing that you have to know is that i didnt turn it into reality.
thats because i am faithful and i did not wish to hinder or relationship
because it meant alot to me.
i also didnt want to make you feel the way you make me felt
when you openly tell others about other guys that you want and cannot get
right in front of my face.
it justs showed how much we meant to you.
and i didnt complain at all ok.
i just told you nicely that you have to think about my feelings too.
simple as that.
yes you can state all my flaws and bad stuff about me,
about how bastardised i can get,
well for everyone elses' sake,
i wont list out yours.
about me deserving your respect?
no one deserves any respect.
respect is earned.
and im not planning to earn any respect from you because
by the things you did to me in the past,
you didnt earn any from me.
dont regret being SO nice to me,
because you were never nice to me.
again, i refuse to stoop down to the level you are at by listing how you werent nice to me.
i know i dont deserve anything good.
no one deserves anything.
and im a christian.
and you hate christianity and God,
so that'll mean i'll be seeing you in hell, from heaven. :)
it seems that your friends dont know anything by just reading my blog entry.
because they obviously dont know what actually happened in the past.
at least my friends know the whole story.
i told them myself.
did you? including the way you treated me? :)
yes, you can say that i'm a good for nothing now.
why would i want to work when i know my parents can support me financially?
working now will be a waste of my time,
and it'll affect my studies.
and if you say that you're "happily living in my own",
then why are you blogging this entry to complain?
arent you supposed to be "happily living" in your own?
im also very glad to hear that you already are out of my way.
and last but not least.
i think you should buck up on your english too.
because your points in your entry have been contradicting each other alot.
and i refuse to list them out.
im not going to stoop down to your level to do that.
im better than that.
and thank you so much for your constructive feedback on me. :)))
Later!
-ter`
